The long road.

I wonder how long this is going to take? Years I suppose, which is understandable, since I have been struggling with my eating for a lifetime. I use to think that all I wanted was to be a 'normal eater', and I really think that I am that now. But I still have times when I doubt myself, dislike my 'wobbly bits', and tell myself off. So I am not all fixed yet, and there is still more to do.

On the positive side I am moving my body a lot more now, I am really enjoying the walking, and fitting it into my daily activity suits me well. Most days I am doing my 10,000, the light evenings help!

And I think the 'chocolate phase' is nearly finished!

The long road.

This is a very long road to travel I feel. I'ts not that I don't feel I am making progress, that's not the case at all. I'm just wondering when the journey will be over and I'll feel like I've arrived somewhere.

I suppose after a lifetime of dieting and bingeing, I can't really expect anything else.

I have been working on moving my body far more, recently, which is progress for me, as I have been very resistant to this in the past. I have been working on my steps over the last fortnight, and on most days have done the 10,000 I have been aiming for. Now the evenings are getting lighter, it is a bit easier to fit it all in.

Oh, and I think the 'chocolate phase' is more or less over!

Back to Work!

Well half term week went very quickly! Normally I wouldn't mind going back, as I have a lovely class, but we are having a few issues at work at the moment to do with staffing, and things are gettting a bit emotional. I love my collegues (well most of them!) and so this is a tough time. So I am aware that my old comforter; food, is the thing I am tempted to turn to. So long as I know what is going on though, I can cope. I am pleased with the steps that I am doing, most days I have done over 10,000. It's surprising how many steps i can manage to do in my normal daily work, and then just a short walk before it gets dark tops it up to the 10,000.

The chocolate craving seems to be settling down, although I am still enjoying my hot chocolate drinks! I'm sure it's the cold weather we are having that is doing it!

I went to the Beyond Chocolate Drop In last week. A nice crowd of ladies there, and it was lovely to see Sophie again and have a chat, and to meet Clare for the first time.

I said to Sophie, it's like a Slimming Club without the horrible bit; getting weighed! I like the way Sophie structures the 'talk' section of the drop in, in pairs, you talk for 3m then swap, then have 1m chat. It's good, because it stops the 'clique' tendency that can happen in these sort of

meetings, where people who know each other, or have met before, can pal up, and exclude other people.

Chocolate week. (weak?)

I'm having a right old 'chocolate week' this week! I have been off work, (half term) and a lot of the time all I have wanted to eat is chocolate cake, or chocolates, and all I have wanted to drink is hot chocolate.( Mind you, I don't usually have cream like this picture!)

It is strange, because I don't normally eat a lot of chocolate, I don't normally fancy it that much. But I am just going with it and seeing what will happen. I have done lots of steps this week, so I have moved around quite a lot.

We are going for a meal in a local restaurant tonight, which will make a nice change. Am feeling guilty because I washed o/h's 'fitness pants', with fabric conditioner (they got mixed up with the other washing) and I feel really bad now!

Off to aplologise to him!

New Glasses.

Today I decided I would go and order a couple of pairs of new glasses. As I have to wear them all the time now, since my sight started to deteriorate in my forties, I thought I would treat myself to a couple of really glamorous pairs in the BOGOFF at Specsavers. Then I can wear different pairs with different outfits, which is what I really love to do. One pair are bright pink and red, and the others are a dark bluey-purple with flowers down the sides!
I always like to look good, and have decided to incorporate the specs into my 'look'!
No need to look dowdy, even if I am in my 50s!

I have also walked 11000 steps today!

Honeycomb Smash Cheesecake.

MMMMMMMMMmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm....

O/h's birthday so we went out to lunch. Normally I wouldn't eat dessert if I wasn't hungry, but today I really fancied something sweet. It was so lovely, I enjoyed every mouthful.

The steps are going ok, but I have been really busy at work, and driving to pick up o/h from station, so it has been really late by the time I get in. I have been walking every where when time has allowed though.

And my weight has satbilised to its lowest yet since I started BC, so I am very pleased with that.